I’ll close this chapter and move on

Well life doesn’t seem to be getting any better for me. I’m still looking for a job. I got a call the other day from one of the agencies who wanted me to go and do work at my old workplace, the one I fired from. I had to explain to the polish woman that I couldn’t go back. She then said to phone back later in the week. The next day I got a phone call whilst I was at my parent’s but because my phone goes in and out of signal there, nothing showed up on my phone til gone 7pm. When I checked at that time there was 1 missed call. I recognised the number as the agency and thought it’s too late to call now, I’ll back in the morning. So yesterday morning I called up to be told to ring back today. I call back today and spoke to a guy who said he would keep my name and number for tomorrow when they find out which places need people. I made sure to explain that I couldn’t go back to the bacon factory because I was finished from there. I’ve heard nothing back from the other agencies  or the telephone answering services I’ve contacted. I haven’t even heard anything from Golden Wonder about the job I applied for there. My job advisor at the job centre said she can’t see why I shouldn’t get the job because I have plenty of experience. She also said to just wait another couple of weeks and see if I hear anything. I’m not holding out, especially since after doing some Facebook profile hopping, I find out that an agency worker there has applied so no doubt they take them on permanent instead.

I called the agency that finished me from the last job on Monday to try and get my week in hand back. The girl said it would go through wages that day and should be in my account on Friday. So lets hope it is there because if not I’ll be straight on that phone to ask where the frig it is. I get my jobseeker’s allowance at some point later so I’ll be able to put a bit more gas in my car.

George has tomorrow off and I was hoping to spend the whole weekend with him but he said that Sean was trying to get tomorrw off too and they’d decided between them to drag me along to Meadowhall for the day. I have no idea why the Hell I’d wanna go with them when George and I don’t exactly have the money and we’ll both be in Sheffield on Saturday anyway to watch Lee Evans. However if they’d said next weekend then I’d have been like FUCK YES! but that’s only because Krispy Kreme are opening a store at Meadowhall on Tuesday and I absolutely love the damn things. George has next Friday off too so I’m trying to talk him into going next Friday to Meadowhall so we can grab a tray. I could so eat a chocolate dream or original glazed right now.

My uncle came over from Germany on Friday. He only let my Dad know that he was coming. He was trying to see his daughter who is apparently pregnant but she doesn’t want anything to do with him. My Dad thinks it’s because her Mum spent alot of time poisoning her mind. Anyway after trying to see his daughter, my uncle decided to drop in on one of my aunts. This is how he said the conversation went

My Uncle: *knocks on the door*
Jackie: *opens door* hello?
My Uncle: don’t you recognise me?
Jackie: Yeah I recognise you
My Uncle: Do you want to talk?
Jackie: no.
My Uncle: okay. Is Tommy in? Does Tommy want to talk?
Jackie: Yes he’s in but he doesn’t want to talk *shuts door*

After that he decided to go and find one of his old pals and ended up staying there. About 9pm on Friday I was at my parent’s and they always go to the pub on a Friday. My Dad was just away upstairs to get ready to go out when the phone rings. It’s my uncle, he tells my Dad what happens and the next thing I know I’m being told by my Mum to get ready to go with my Dad to get him – bearing in mind that this is a 2 hour trip there and the same back.

Anyway after getting some petrol we set off and get there around 11.30pm. His pal’s wife meets us and takes us back to her house where my uncle is. He was alright but you could tell that he was upset about what had happened. After a coffee we left to come back home. He spent all weekend with my parent’s until Sunday when I drove him to the train station to catch the train to London and on Monday at 6am he caught his flight from Luton back to Germany.

On Friday night on the way back home from picking my uncle up. I wrote on Facebook

I have come to realise tonight that some members of my family are cold and heartless..

Over the course of the weekend my best friend and cousin replied to it, to the point where my cousin decided to delete and block me. Do I care? well no, not even the slightest. Why? Because she’s said everything I needed to read to be proven that she is in fact a twat. My Mum dislikes my Dad’s side of the family because of a fall out she had with one of his brother’s on the day of my Nan’s funeral at the wake. I thought perhaps she might just be being biased but after this, I now believe her. I was doing alot of thinking whilst I was driving home from dropping my uncle off at the train sation and I’ve decided that I don’t think I want anything to do with them after what happened this past weekend. My Dad is stunned that his sister could do that. My uncle told me and my Mum on Saturday afternoon that if it hadn’t been for him working to pay bills and feed them when they were kids, they would have ended up in a children’s home, so what a nice way to repay him eh? I just love that my cousin is all nicey nicey to him on his facebook wall but then when I write what I did she makes him out to be a liar. I still have some of the family on my Facebook list but I have no desire to talk to them and I’ll probably just leave them there until they delete me. Because if they’re still on my list, I can see what they’re saying or what they’re planning.

Hamish still keeps scratching at his ear and making it bleed. I’m now out of ideas on how to make him stop. Once I get my money I’m gunna buy some carefresh and see if that helps. I had a rad idea of taking him to my parent’s in an afternoon so I can watch him and maybe stop him from scratching but I don’t like the idea of parting him from his brothers for so long.

I haven’t managed to make anymore bracelets yet but I have plans on trying to make some this weekend. I’m trying to make 10 or so and try and sell them. I think $1 each is fair. I’m gunna try and learn some new patterns too. I love the candy strip because of how simple it is but some people want other designs. I’d eventually like to have enough patterns to set up an etsy store or something. It’d be nice to have something to help support my offline income. In fact it’d be nice to have something that allows me to have money when I don’t have a job. If anyone is actually interested in buying a bracelet just leave a comment and I’ll get back to you.